a couple of weeks ago i got a wee cough. i wasn't hugely worried - i had a Marvellous Training Plan which would get me to my marathon mileage with time to spare, so i figured a few days off to recover from what seemed like a mild spring cold wouldn't do any harm.
well, the "mild spring cold" turned into one of the most revolting, long-lasting colds i've ever had, and despite the above arsenal, my "wee cough" turned into a week off, then two weeks, and my Marvellous Training Plan rather went out the window. it's now been two weeks & two days since i've done any running at all, and allowing for appropriate pre-marathon taper time, i have exactly THREE WEEKS left to train (aaaaaaarrrrggh!!!!). since i'm asthmatic, any lung-related issues, however minor, really affect my training ability & energy levels. so until i finally shift this cough, i can't really get back into running (although i'm hopeful that it's on the way out, and i should be able to start doing small runs again in the next few days!).
to say that i'm a tad stressed would be a massive understatement. our JustGiving donations have now surpassed our original goal, which is both hugely exciting and hugely scary. none of us are fabulously sporty, but i'm meant to be the most "experienced" (ha!) runner, and this whole thing was my idea in the first place. we're doing it for such a great organisation, and although we really want to raise as much money as we possibly can, each donation that comes in adds that little bit of extra pressure, and raises expectations that little bit more. and i'm really worried about letting everyone down - my teammates, all you donors, and the MS Society - if i can't do this as well as i want to.
i do know that most of this is in my head. i'm putting a lot of pressure on myself, not just to complete my relay leg, but to do it like a "real runner" - i had visions of 8.5 miles at a consistent sub-ten-minute mile (ok, that's not super-fast, but it's fast for me!), a brilliant race day with perfect conditions, and a surprisingly athletic version of myself sailing in to my relay handover point like some kind of elegant gazelle. in the real world, though, even on my best running day, that's never going to happen - i may have been able to achieve the pace time i had in mind, but i was always going to be the wheezing, red-faced, slightly overweight, short-legged, middle-aged sweaty mess that i am.
so never fear - i WILL be running at the end of may, and i WILL absolutely finish my 8.5 mile leg of the relay. it may not be pretty, i may not do it in the time i expected, and i may even have to walk bits of it - but i'll get my sweaty self to that handover point no matter what!!
(don't forget there's still loads of time to donate & win!!!!)